At this point, my family and career have stabilized. I am constantly thinking, “what does God want from me now?” During my retreat, I reflected on the most painful memory. 20 years ago, I lost my baby at six months pregnant. The only regret I have is how I dealt with it. The poor formation I had for dealing with this grief contributed to my suffering. I have the conviction that women who abort willingly also suffer from a similar depression. I will commit to serve as a volunteer in Rachel’s Vineyard to help these women. In hopes of also expanding this organization’s help to women who have suffered through involuntary pregnancy loss.